I am really sick and tired of living with someone with this disease. At one point he stopped drinking for 14 years, went to AA meetings but was in effect a dry alcoholic. I told him to start drinking, may as well he was making my life hell then and still is now. That was three years ago. His drinking consists of drinking by himself in the day, adding Xanax to that or any other drug he has prescribed to him by his doctor, including sleeping aids which he takes in the day to enhance his high. When I mention this to his family they think its funny, really? Lately he has become very belligerent and yells at me a lot. Oh and we have a gun in the house, and one time he blacked out and did not know who I was, but this was a long time ago but I am afraid it can happen again and fear for my life!
My problem is that I am afraid to leave him. I am so beaten down from him I have little self esteem thinking I cannot do anything on my own, although deep down in side I know I can because I am a strong individual and am a survivor. Is there anyone out there that can give me some kind of advise? Any words of wisdom? I am very sad and need some light at the end of this deep abyss.
